Excited!

sharing realities among 'im not going to lie'

So,

i am not going to lie...

i am at a point in my life where 'WOW', it has been an interesting past couple months.

i have found myself among a few varied opportunities, all of which are strong passions of mine, and i know could be great directions for accomplishing what i have been working on through out my life's journey of purpose and passion.

although i am now getting to a point where i am feeling more calmed about the decision that is up and coming-to be made, i must say WOW'....it hasnt been the easiest ride...but it has surely been one of growth, and a learning of acceptance,...and a true awakened recognition of how happy, accepting of life, and peaceful i am ready to be.: among a place and settledness of mind/balance/ allowing myself to just BE, and flow; while being intuit.

Allowing myself to be among experience, while i open myself to being truly happy, without worrying about decisions, for i will be among trust, and open intuition for all i experience.

This is a great journey to endure, and to come out alive of!! my god.

i have felt a heavy heart, a busy mind,...an unknowing of direction of which path i was to choose,

and all of this came out of a time in which i was just before, so certain of my direction.

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a sharing of the journey:

after living in vancouver for 9 months, loving life, going with the flow, experience and filming culture, i went home to ontario for my moms wedding, and to soak in some direction towards being ready to embrace the opportunity of the miss universe pageant for this spring.

i arrived back in Vancouver october 5th, with this head on straight.

i found myself feasting for sponsorship...in search of how i can make it happen, as i was 110% gung-ho about this endeavour.

meeting a 'spiritual advisor' at the beach, i felt a carpet beneath my steady feet, be pulled out from under me. perhaps a year off would be good for my personal growth and development. give myself time to breathe, to be open ...to grow in intuitive openness.

having heard this, i felt a relief...a pressure taken off my shoulders...an 'okay' because it was a chance for me to live life.....as time wavered on, and meeting with different people...i felt swayed back and forth, of i wanted to embrace this opportunity that came to me!,...yet i also began to realize that i had come out here for filming projects. it was my purpose and passion to share the inspirational journey of my filming of culture and awareness, of exploring a journey of 'unity in diversity: we're all one welcomes you to Paradisos'

***ALLright,

so ....i feel the envisioning happening... i am ready to pursue and create this story, which will lead me to continue well into the future.... :)

journey of a multicultural nation

& symbolic journey of spirits flame

***in the meantime, i now find myself ready to choose a decision/direction

filmmaking opportunity with kaleidescope//inspired to create stories with the class/olympics

or upload/go over our footage from our life journey ... organize our story...be in a new space/open heart and mind...open to inspiration... in the 'now moment', enjoying life from this new perspective.

----i shall point out that with kaleidescope, i would have to miss the torch run being brought through Chatham, my hometown, as they plan to shoot right through this christmas week. and the whole torch run/ connection of the flame/ with chatham-kent, is part of the whole vision of my life's purpose over the next few years.

ah decisions...

trusting where we are

and where we choose to go

I WILL LOOK BACK ON THIS AND SMILE.

so lets direct ourself, and enjoy the journey

for we truly are on a ride of beauty, love and sharing Who We Are

xo

Jocey